My first Mother's Day was pretty exciting! There had been a lot of pain before that: I’d lost seven pregnancies, really wanted to become a mother, and had been waiting to be chosen by a birth mother. There were times we were thinking we were going to be parents and we weren't, and I always had some feelings around Mother's Day. I had a miscarriage a week before Mother's Day, which was really hard. And then I had another one ON Mother's Day. We were getting ready to go to church, and I knew I was losing the baby!
A lot of the time on Mother's Day, I just wanted to curl up in bed and forget the whole day because it can be really painful. I'm sure that some of the other adoptive moms out there might feel like that too. You’re around people (especially at church) who are celebrating moms. In the past, they’d have all the mothers at my church stand up, and that was really painful.